I’m thinking Charles Schulz must have spent some time observing churches for inspiration, because this seems to be the approach of so many. And, to be honest, the thought of leaving crossed our mind.
And crossed our mind…
And came up in conversation again.
But here’s the thing about God and the way He moves…
He’s a healer. Something beautiful will always come from the mess. But the thing is, sometimes it has to seem worse to us before it can get better. As chemo makes the patient feel worse before the cancer is healed, so does pruning for the Church.
And sometimes, God heals things in ways that we don’t necessarily like. It can come in the leaving of friends, the resignation of beloved leaders, or the ending of programs we grew up in. Hearts may get heavier before the day of rejoicing is experienced.
I would love to tell you that our place we call church is there. That all of the drama and hurt feelings have ended, we’ve hugged it out, prayed it up, and moved forward together unified and healthy, but that just wouldn’t be true.
I know one thing for sure though. The heart of the Father is redemption. He doesn’t want to leave us in our mess forever. He wants to take all of our brokenness and mold it into something that points to His glory.
I’m not so secretly hoping that it’s just around the corner, but I have to be okay with Him working in His timing. And I have to be okay with the fact that Jesus died for drama-stirrers and that forgiveness can be theirs too.
I’m not there yet.
But I know that if I’m going to be, then I have to move forward in humility and love and try to be a grace-pourer. And for me, that means closing my mouth (even though I’m typically pretty chatty) and choosing silence (even though I don’t like the quiet) on the subject for a while so that Jesus and I can work out my place in this journey to healing for this place that we call church…